I had a thought and then a whole lot of thoughts, and then I connected them in a semi-coherent blog post. Let’s start with the first thought, one from my favorite author and from the book The Alchemist:
In my head, the universe is like this big, twisty-turny vine plant. As the green weaves in and out of its’ own limbs, various flowers and thorns pop up, filling in the empty spaces of the loops and crevices.
Every day, we travel these vines and discover new things about life- maybe we encounter a thorn, or maybe a flower. But, each turn we take reveals something new we never would have thought or seen if we didn’t keep tracing the vine-branches. We will never see the full plant, the full picture that reveals all of the answers, but we can see the next turn, the next flower, the next lesson.
Maybe the beauty of life isn’t in knowing, but in the journey. The decision to chase our dreams, live, and be full in every sense of the word. And when we want something, we encounter thorns and flowers, turns and twists, which lead us on the greatest adventure of all (even though it may be filled with a lot of pain).
I thought about this, then I thought about running, and I thought about all aspects of my life, and then I had another thought.
Recently, I have been blessed with a new job- it is for a medical technology company, and I shall be working as a compliance administrator. Basically, I make sure we aren’t breaking any laws. I have been training and running, living at home, dating Mitchel Gilbert, meeting with friends (my bff cousin is coming next weekend, guys, this is exciting), and eating a lot of bagels and oranges (cold and flu season, yall). There are a lot of things going on, sometimes bad and sometimes good, but they are all adventures because:
And every day, I venture onto that vine and search for my personal legend. The thing that speaks to my heart since I was a little chickadee. Freedom.
Freedom for myself, freedom for others, freedom in faith.
I am pretty secure about my dreams, but the process, that is where I get insecure. I don’t like to talk about something until I have already succeeded. I don’t like to talk about how I applied to over 100 jobs and got turned down by some positions that were probably offered to high school kids. I don’t like to talk about how while Mitch and I are super happy, we still get in tiny-tiffs here and there. I don’t like to talk about how I am afraid of rejection every time I want to hang out with friends, even though they have expressed time and time again to me that they wanna higgity-hang. And finally, I don’t like to talk about my training because it is less than perfect.
But, if my personal legend is to chase freedom for myself and for others, I can’t be a slave to this fear anymore. I can either be a victim of the process or an adventurer of the ride.
This past year, I have used a training journal (that I LOVE-Believe training journal people, it is great!) but now the pages have been used up and I am moving back to using my RunningAhead. I thought about how much time I will have for the blog with my new job and I thought about how I can still write and share my experience.
I decided that I am going to move all of my stuff/data from the month of January onto my runningahead (some have notes, some do not- I will be updating the notes from my training log periodically). And make it public. And finally, learn to stand in who I am. I have provided the link Here and will make it open to public viewing. I am going to share what it is really like, my training and everything. I am going to be honest. I am going to fail a lot. But also, I am going to believe that this adventure means something, and connect and share my search for freedom in life, in my job, in running, in relationships, and in faith.
And that is why I keep running: because it means something.
What is your personal legend, the thing that you are chasing in ALL aspects of your life?
What is there to discover for YOU on the vine branch that we all travel?
Let’s chase it together and enjoy the journey on the vine.